just tired

i dont know what to say
i dont know what to think
i dont know how to say what i think
i dont want to think
i dont want to say
i just want to sleep
and forget all the shit
im tired and over everything
what happened to me? im not motivated im not happy
i dont know how i feel
all i know is im empty
the only person who makes me feel something is oliver
and i only just met him
what happens when hes not there anymore?
will i be the person he has made me? or will i walk around soulless like i was a couple of weeks ago?
its hard to watch friends let themselves go and its even harder to watch me let myself go
so why do i want to so bad?