revelations

What do you do when the person you need doesn't need you
What do you do when the person you want doesn't want you
What happens when the person you trusted most breaks that trust
What happens when I don't want to wakeup because reality is no longer better than sleeping
What happens when I go out and everything I see reminds me of you
You wanna know what happens? Shit happens
You lose yourself to fake tendencies like smoking, drinking, giving up on school, friends, family, yourself
And once again it all comes crashing down
Like it did before the start
Like you knew it would in the end
But you fooled yourself into believing or hoping otherwise
And look what happens over an over again
No change, no pace
Because I don't know where I am, where I was or where I will be
Because thinking about it scares me
Because I know I'll find the truth if I want to
And the sun keeps shining, they all keep smiling like nothing bad could ever happen
Then you learn something that they are yet to learn
Happiness is a temporary fix for problems that can't be solved.