the cycle

fear -> spear -> tears -> clear -> steer -> reappears

1. fears have to be recognized whether they be the fear of a break up or the fear of not achieving what you primarily thought you could... fear appears
2. then comes the spear. something that jabs at you, something that hurts. a breakup, an epiphany of the worse kind; something to start the long decline
3. of course, after the fears and the spears, tears decide to join in the fun. the tears/decline lasts only as long as you let it...
4. clear. the most satisfying part of the cycle. you learn new things and relearn things you already knew. the fact that youre learning something makes you happier; you think "i'll learn this time so it wont be the same next time" whether thats true or not is up to you
5. steer; the process of steering in the right direction. picking yourself up again after the long decline all the way down. you start to work on yourself.
6. reappears... after all this partially self inflicted torture, happiness reappears. during the decline you either know things will be okay because happiness will always reappear... or you will think fuck it and continue to decline even further than you thought possible. then of course, we stay happy forever and ever <3

yeah only joking... its all the way back to the start of the most fucked up cycle. maybe this theory of mine is just fucked up completely... interesting thoughts though. hahahaha :D