things will be okay

oli and i broke up.
one month and one week exactly
i have no regrets but i do miss him, i have been doing that a lot lately
the worst part about everything that i went through the past week is that even though he made me feel like that, im always going to make time for him
because he deserves nothing less
they all say forget him, dont worry about it, hes not worth your time
when in all honest its the complete opposite
they just dont understand half of it
only see what theyre shown
ill be there for him you can bet on that
im not going anywhere for a while
hes one of the few people who really mean something to me
and i need to hold onto that for as long as i can
because just when i thought that maybe life was just a waste he came along and made me feel something real for the first time in ages
he made me feel more than anyone has before
i was scared, nervous, anxious, happy, sad, excited, content, indifferent
i dont even know... time always went so fast whenever i was with him
we will still be friends i hope
i thought i would be more upset, truth is that i had been setting myself up for it for a week or so
maybe i just didnt see it or didnt want to see it but i knew we were going to end soon
i didnt need to be told that at all but yet i set myself up to hear it
i care about him and i hope he cares about me
things will be okay